Bad Day

I guess it was inevitable that I would cut today.

I made it through the horrible hateful email from my sister, I barely made it but I did. But tonight with him, feeling his loathing for my body I could not take it. I had to.

The fat part of my arm. The part I hate so fucking much. I wish I could be like so many of the Ana girls. I want to have that much discipline and sickness but nope.... I am a fat fuck with nothing for will power.

I want to hide it, but I want to tell him. I am supposed to tell him...

I can't this one is my secret.

Fuck, my life is my secret.